Currently Listening Closer By Josh Groban see related

The weirdest and longest title thing of a xanga entry ever...except not really....

...okay..today has been the most...HARDCORE, crap-formulating, stupid, imbecilated, rediculously slow, fast, tiring, soccer gaying, lunch awesome..ing, choir nerd-dooming, mom raging, wrath feeling, freshman/sophomore homosexualing, Dustin cool point earning, EMILY BEING MY HEROing, kitten dumbing, litter birthing, tip of the thonging, crazy, hole of a day.

     i hate it when days like these occure. dont you?

Currently Listening Rascal Flatts see related

the world is frustrating me

We are out of chocolate devil cakes...

im doomed.

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edit.....OF WODER!!!!!!!!!

i want to take a nap buuut i have my all state music on and its destracting me with its INCREDIBLENESS!!

CURSE YOU CHOIR NERDITY!!!! CUUUUUUUUUURSE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!

im sorry! im sorry. i didnt mean it....i was just.. messin... thats all...forgive me music.

i am not worthy..

..i need a nap.

Currently Watching Pirates of the Caribbean - The Curse of the Black Pearl (2-Disc Collector's Edition) see related

ummmm. i dont know why im updating this thing. but oh well. i guess i can keep this thing just to talk to myself. thats always fun.

im in a really weird mood right now. i kind of feel like ive been let down by many people lately. and i feel like i keep letting ppl down too. in more ways than one. i wish i had someone to talk to about this. that woud understand. someone that wouldnt just tell me that im being stupid because im young to be thinking about love and all that stuff realating to the word. and to all those ppl who already have told me that. you have no idea. dont judge my situation. dont downsize everything i say i feel because im young.

anyway. what im trying to say is that im not happy right now. im just not. i want to be so bad though. i keep asking God to help me to be but it hasnt come yet. im starting to think that im never happy. that through everyone elses eyes....im just a girl who always says shes a christian. yet doesnt act like one...but instead acts like shes so angry at the world...like shes so sad all the time...like im rude and moody.  but im not

i promise im not. at least i dont think i am. i used to not be this way. there used to be a time when ppl enjoyed talking to me. when ppl wanted to see me. when ppl couldnt wait to talk to me or talk to me about what theyre going through. but not anymore. the world sees me as an insane, moody girl now. its kind of upsetting.

anyway i gatta go. sorry for all the complaining. matthew hates it when i do that. so to matthew im sorry. i didnt mean to. i just had to tell someone. even if that someone was  this stupid xanga thing.

oh yeah and pray for matthew. hes stressin out over piano stuff soooooooo yeah. do it to it he needs the help. oh and pray for emily as well cuz shes goin through some rough spots at the moment.

................Pancakes Anyone?